So why this month did the spotting start 5 days early??
After a tiny spotting, I went to RE on Thursday - too early to start the cycle. Call Monday morning to let us know how it's going.
Almost no spotting all weekend. This morning Dr. N told me to again tomorrow - I'll start the cycle when full flow starts.
I know that FP is coming, but the mind fuck of the on-again/off-again spotting is killing me. I event took a pregnancy test this morning - the 2nd I've taken in 17 months of TTC. Negative. Of Course.
The spotting was heavier today, but that doesn't mean much. I know that tomorrow it will come. Still I cling to a hope that maybe it's possible we won't need IVF.
"This is crazy, I have another patient sitting in front of me telling me the same thing," Dr. N told me when I called this morning. "Do you know how many times this happens to me in a year? Once - and now I have 2 of you at the same time." He gave her BCP 'in case she needs it this cycle' - I was given instructions to call tomorrow with an update.
Tonight I'm crampy. My lower back hurt earlier. I know FP is on the way. And yet I know when it arrives I will be crushed. Again.
Why is this necessary? I was ready to start IVF. Ready for FP to get the cycle started. And now I have hope dangling in front of me and can only brace myself against the crash.
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